just one of them days...

So the saying goes... it's just one of them days.

I think there should be a button to turn off brain activity. Or at least the thought process part of it. Some days its just better to wander through your day aimlessly without a care in the world. I wish today I had that option. Today would be a good day to have an off button. Its worse for the people who are over analytical or take everything too personal.

That would be me.

Some of the woes of our life are our own fault. If you just took it at face value and left it alone... then it would be so much easier. If you just didn't want "to get to the bottom of it." I need to learn to leave things alone...

My goal is to have an automatic robot switch... I'm going to work on being able to turn that switch on at will and keep it on.

Being a robot isn't so bad, right? I don't want to be it permanently, just when needed... just when I need that extra push to make it.

Somethings are hard to deal with on your own. If I had the robot switch... it would save going out and buying a robot.

A new year...or close enough.

Last week I started a new school year at Ole Miss... sadly, it is also my last as I'm finishing up on my B.S.W. (Well last for this degree). As I'm scrambling around the first week, attempting to get my feet on the ground, it hit me how real this is. We dream of when we go to college (well, a lot do). We dream of having a career. But when your looking your future right in the eyes... your chest feels a little tighter. How did I get here? When did this happen? It was just yesterday I was running from my brothers in the yard... now I'm nearing having a degree and nearing having to make a decision on my future. But it isn't just my future. Its the future of my family, my husband and son. We say there isn't a rush to these things, but who are we kidding? I have till December (a lot less time than I thought) to start the application process (and all the tests I take) to get into law school. Wait! I'm not even finished on my bachelors yet... Can't I focus on that first and then move onto the next step? Nope, many times the journey's overlap. This is the part that makes my chest constrict. Makes my breathing labored. Can I do this? Where is my confidence? Why am I second guessing my abilities? Is this what I want to do? But, its the things that are most unfamiliar to us that scare us the most. So I'll let my persistence and stubbornness lead me through the times where my confidence is waining... where the fear and uncertainty of my future threatens to overtake me. And at the end of the day, no matter what happens, I'll know that everything is going to workout... some way or another.

revelations and all that jazz...

I think it would be a good thing if everyone stopped trying to figure out who they were and just enjoy life. I'm not saying live your life by the seat of your pants, but it seems we get so caught up in defining who were are as people, that we lose ourselves in the process. I would like to be able to live my life happily while accepting me for who I am, flaws and all. I want to stop trying to figure out what I'm about or what my purpose in life is, and just live my life to the fullest and focus on the now. If I discover something about myself in the process, then great, but I want to try and stop dwelling on every little thing in my life.

We all make mistakes. Whats the point in focusing all our energy in to why we made the mistakes we did. Its good to learn from your mistakes, but don't get so caught up in why you made them. You might just find yourself making another mistake in the process.

Live a satisfying life. Be content in what you have and don't focus all your attention on what you don't have in life. One day, you will realize all the time you wasted and it will be too late to go back. Try to remember that the small things in life are what are important. The hand print paint pictures your child brings home from school for you to proudly put on your refrigerator or an unexpected bouquet of flowers from your husband.

Invest yourself into meaningful things. Don't focus on just your self satisfaction. Help other, love others. You may learn that when you give of yourself, you feel a satisfaction that is like no other.

Peace and Love,
Jeorgia T.

Don't read if you're closed minded. A call to rise above!

Its a very daunting thing to sit back and watch the way people act. I have always considered myself a people watcher (like so many others). Normally, it has been something I've enjoyed, but in all honesty it is something that is embarrassing and sad as well. Its like getting kicked in the butt from behind. You just don't see it coming.

I've seen the way many people today talk to their fellow beings. Actually, I've experienced this first hand. Having a job where I am in constant contact with people allows you to see the real face of people we brush shoulders with and of those we don't. I consider myself a people person by nature, but recently I've noticed myself getting frustrated much more in my dealings with people. Even in difficult confrontations with people in my job, I've been able to handle things professionally and without getting upset.

But lately, I've notice an increase in utter disrespect for people. An attitude of superiority. A general dislike for people. I have had people talk to me as if I were below them and stupid. I've felt the need to justify and explain myself to strangers who assume that I'm unintelligent or unsuccessful for the job I have. Well first, I happen to like my job. Second, its a dern good job, and yes, I said dern. I've felt the need to look them in the eye and tell them how hard I work for my family, and how I bust my butt in college to get a degree. How one day, when I'm a lawyer, we will see what they have to say. I've wanted to defend other employees because we have so many people working multiple jobs to provide for their family. Sorry, not everyone gets things handed to them. I've even had to stop myself, and think when I'm acting in a way that is inappropriate. Even I have to assess where my train of thought is taking me, and listen to my convictions.

I've sat in places and watched how disrespectful people speak to servers or people in service industry jobs (like a nail salon). Why is it so difficult for people to respect each other for the mere fact that we are humans? I've seen the way the younger generations act and speak now. I fear for my own child being brought up in world where hatred and animosity seems to fuel everything.

HEY YOUNGER PEOPLE (MY AGE INCLUDED) OPEN DOORS FOR PEOPLE OLDER THAN YOU!!! GIVE UP YOUR SEAT IN A RESTAURANT WAITING ROOM FOR AN ELDERLY PERSON. GUYS, OPEN DOORS FOR LADIES. BE UNIQUE,BUT STOP MAKING UP DUMB WORDS! BE POLITE!!!! PLEASE, THANK YOU, YES MA'AM, NO SIR!!! SHOW COURTESY TO EACH OTHER.

OLDER GENERATION. YOU CAN STILL LEARN TOO! JUST BECAUSE YOUR OLDER, DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN TREAT OTHERS POORLY. WE NEED YOUR GUIDANCE AND NO ONE WANTS TO LISTEN TO SOMEONE WHO TALKS TO THEM LIKE THEIR STUPID!

NO ONE IS ANY BETTER FOR THE COLOR OF THEIR SKIN. NO ONE IS BETTER FOR THEIR NATIONALITY. OR THEIR BANK ACCOUNT. OR THEIR JOB!

Think before you act! Its one thing to act obnoxious and be treated stupid, because you are, in fact, acting in a stupid way. You don't have to have an IQ of 170 to do the right thing and act in a proper manner.

Just remember that what you do now, does affect your future. Please also understand that what you do, also affects other people. The world does not revolve around you. The world does not revolve around America. Yeah, I said it.

We owe it to each other to love one another and learn from each other. So rise above. Rise above your circumstances. Rise above whatever class society places you.

There will come a time when we all answer to the same God.

Peace and Love,
J-Well

Don't base your happiness on the recognition of others...

I learned a good lesson this week. Not only that, I had a good insight to me as a person as well. Its nothing new that I am a type A person. I'm analytical, almost to a fault. I believe there is a reason to everything, and I try to understand everything, something we all know isn't attainable. This week I realized also that I base a lot of my happiness and pride in my achievements in the others recognizing what I do. I learned that if someone wasn't saying good job, or keep up the good work, that I often felt as if I wasn't doing a good job or what I did wasn't good enough. Its good to have others appreciate what you do, don't get me wrong, but how sad is it that I needed to hear people say that. I should take pride in myself and what I do, despite others. I don't need recognition or praise. I have myself, and that's enough. I should have the confidence to know that I work hard and do a good job at what I do. I am such a person that needs verbal affirmation in life, but I think its time that I stop depending on that. If I don't, life will be full of disappointment. Not only that, but I want to stop thinking about everything all the time and just enjoy life and live it to the fullest.

Until next time,
Jeorgia Tidwell

Fresh start

Getting settled into our new house has been fun and interesting. Its hard to make a house a home when your working and going to school, but I think it is coming along. Yesterday, I made coffee with my new coffee pot. Lets just say it was drinkable, but not enjoyable. Today, I gave it another shot and it was pretty good. I used our new toaster to toast delicious ego waffles last night for dinner...even with a few burnt spots, it was good. I think our first meal will be spaghetti. Nothing special just plain spaghetti...

It was exciting today to walk outside and look at our yard and think about all we want to do to it. Hopefully after school, I will be able to tackle the task of making a flowerbed. There is so much I want to do but I know a lot of it has to wait. Everyone tells me it takes time to get things done. Even something like unpacking. I am exciting about the day where I know where stuff is.

The biggest challenge will be getting Noah use to his new house. I want him to be comfortable. The first night wasn't too bad, but he woke up scared and confused... he slept the rest of the night with momma and daddy and woke up in a great mood. "Wake up Momma. Wake up Momma!" Then singing his random words. After time, I think we will all get settled and comfortable. In time...

Food for thought...

Today is a typical Monday. Getting up with Noah and doing all my mommy stuff. Squeezing in a little school work here and there. Then off to work. Probably will do a little more school work after work tonight.

I always wonder what I would do if I had a week of nothing. No obligations... just nothing. Even my vacations in the past have been jam packed with activities, but most people's vacations are that way. So a week of nothing... would probably bore me to death. One of my fears after I finish school is boredom. Or not being busy. I'm sure a lot of people fear being able to find a job after they graduate, well, I just wanna find stuff to do. I don't want the same routine day after day that places me with too much time on my hands. I'm sure if my mother reads this she is probably saying amen and laughing. Since high school (probably longer) she said I always had to be on the go, well she's absolutely right... don't rub it in mom.

I would love to go to the beach and do absolutely nothing...for awhile. I'm sure I would end up playing with kids on the beach or buying a metal detector and use it (do people really do that on beaches?)

I would like a little break from my crazy schedule I have now, but I would end up missing it in the end. Or I would replace it with another busy schedule...

Peace out!